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Beberapa hari lalu dt ikut gathering Couchsurfing dan kenalan sama banyak orang baru. Salah satunya Aline, cewek Prancis yang lagi liburan di Indonesia. Berhubung dia bule, maka dia dan Alex (bule Kanada) yang jadi pusat perhatian selama gathering. Diwawancara abis-abisan lah intinya. pose dulu sebelum berangkat Di tengah wawancara itu Aline cerita kalo mau pergi rafting pas liburan Idul Adha. dt nyeletuk aja mau ikutan dan berujung ikut beneran. Haha. Pertama kalinya nih pergi sama orang ga dikenal, bule pula. Tapi ga cuma sama Aline kok, dt ngajak mas Maman, Aline bareng Pierre (bule Prancis, dosen di IFI), Michele (Indonesia, anak IFI), n Ratih (turunan Indonesia, lahir gede di Madagascar, anak IFI). habis ini jatuh.. hihi.. Ceritanya mereka pada naik mobil dari Surabaya dan bakal ngampirin dt di Sidoarjo. Ngejelasin ancar-ancar tempat ngejemput ini yang mbulet. Secara ditelpon dt harus ngomong pake bahasa Inggris, padahal dt n Aline sama-sama begonya kalo urusan cascisc...

Semangat pagi, Takita.. Kakak baru baca  surat Takita  dan jadi inget waktu kakak masih kecil. Waktu kecil, papa suka banget cerita dongeng klasik macam Bawang Putih-Bawang Merah atau si Kancil dengan banyak macam variasi ceritanya. Yang seru itu waktu papa mulai pakai boneka-boneka kakak untuk dijadikan karakter dongengnya, juga waktu papa mengubah suara berpura-pura jadi si Kancil atau Pak Tani. Sayangnya papa ga setiap hari ada di rumah karena waktu itu papa kerja di luar kota. Kakak cuma bisa dengar dongeng papa tiap akhir pekan. Kalau papa ga ada, kakak pasti sudah nempel-nempel ke mama minta didongengi. Berhubung mama ga sepintar papa kalau mendongeng, mama lebih memilih untuk membelikan buku dan membacakannya untuk kakak. Kata mama, berhubung buku cerita yang kakak punya dulu sedikit, jadi mama membacakan buku yang sama berulang kali. Bosan kah? Kakak ga ingat, tapi kata mama kakak ga pernah bosan kalo disuruh dengar cerita. Kata mama lagi, kakak bisa sampai hafal...

Kemarin pagi diawali dengan kebiasan rutin dt dengan scrolling timeline twitter dan tetiba teringat twit-nya  @growdeuno  tentang dia yang mau membangun kebiasaan baik yang seharusnya kita lakuin. Entah itu bentuk olahraga spesifik atau makan makanan tertentu atau bentuk apapun kebiasaan lain yang ingin kita bentuk. Apapun kebiasaan itu, yang pasti harus bisa dilakukan harian. Setelah semaleman mikir mau pake misi apa, akhirnya dt milih untuk membangun kebiasan jaman kecil dulu: minum susu. Satu gelas sehari. Waktu kecil dulu rasanya sarapan ga lengkap kalau belum minum susu. Entah sejak kapan kebiasaan dt buat minum susu mulai pudar. Entah juga kenapa. Anyway, I'm going to rebuild this habitual milk drinking starts from today. Komitmen dt, setiap kali satu hari ga minum susu, dt bakal nambah dua hari di deadline misi. Buat yang penasaran dengan 60 days habit mission, silakan mampir ke  sini . Join us! :D

Funny when I re-read  my old blog  and find that I'm able to write a lot of things back then. While now all I can write is super short entry. Too much twit perhaps? And the worse thing is I wrote better when I'm not in a good mood. Maybe it's a way to me to release my steam. But still, I don't want just share my gloomy side, I also want to share happy parts of my life. But when I try to write something when I feel happy it's so lame. Crap..

The last time I wrote an entry I feel so devastated. I think I will need a lot of time to fix myself but it turn out that I only need a man. The fastest way to heal a broken heart is to fall in love again.  I think that works for me. Even, IMO, it's not love what I feel right now. The point is it makes me feel good. To feel the butterfly on stomach again. To feel that there's someone out there still attracted to you. To feel that you're not going to be the forever alone girl. That's all I need to rebuild my confidence on my romance life. And what I need to do right now is to keep everything light and simple. Back to focusing on myself. :)

Tell a girl she's beautiful a million times, and she'll never believe you. Call her ugly once, and she'll never forget it. -- @CauseWereGirls True.  But I never think that when a specific person tell that you're ugly is going to impact so much. And I'm struggling with self-deprecation.  Damn.  I never thought that I'm actually going to struggle with my self-esteem. I have high self-esteem. Even my mum said that she's afraid that I'm going to be cocky when I grew up one day, since she saw me that I'm an over-confident little baby girl.. *sigh*  I really need a lot of times to upgrade myself right now.

I met  Kei Savourie  yesterday. No, not just met. I kinda insist to see him between his schedule in Surabaya, actually.. And Kei is the master of heart broke healing *seenaknya bikin julukan* :p Pengennya sih curhat, sambil nangis-nangis kalo bisa, tapi begitu sudah ketemu, ga bisa..  I don't know why, I just can't tell him the reason why I think I should end my relationship, so I can have the right advice..  Since an advice is what you ask for when you already know the answer but wish you didn't, right?